Saturday, April 29, 2006

drugged

I walk

To become

What I admired

The man

I desired

The ugly

That inspired

My solace

Is me

Disconnected

But not free

Don’t touch me

Out of this

I love the drug

Sedate my soul

So I drift

By my own

In my own

I live

19 comments:

Subhana said...

Dude, you're tripping.

L u D a said...

tripping .. ? as in my writing's gone bad .. ?
My english's loosing it?
my poetry's crapped?

please please tell me.

staying with all the south indians at work, something was bound to happen.

please reply.

Subhana said...

No no no. Actually, I was referring to the 'drugs' part, you dodo!

Nah, this was a good one. I like the way you initiated with end rhyme!
However, you should really start going past that type of poem structure! Remember you once wrote 'The grey flower' - isi type ka aur likho yaar. That one was so AALA!

Anonymous said...

I NEED UR HELP.....
see in my area i go topray in this mousque right so like five time a day ..but thats all just aside my main problem here is that i know this uncule figure ok and like he talks to me a friendly manner usually after paryer ends while im going back home asking things like how are u exams coming along ( by the way im only 15 and half turning 16 this december) and like todyas weathjer and stuff... ok so real general today when i was coming back from friday prayer i meet him he offered to show me inside his furniture shop hes got business nerby my house so i sadsi sure cause like he makes all thoes antique furniture and oak doors and stuff so once i was incide right he showing me around hen he puts him arm on my back and says ure wonderfull and kisses my cheeck then we go further in the shop and i ask himm ok what are these ornaments hed got a room full of egyptian type metal ornaments and then he tells me there metal painted and agin this type face frontword he comes adn kisses me on my lips and says im great and then i felt horro down my spine because this is a sort of a werehouse im in and this guy whos in his 50 is trying to kiss me ok look, muslims have a formal hug but no kissing and stuff just a normal hug but i was like this guy is acting strange so i started acting like ok we have a gathering at my house (i live with my parents) so i stated going for the exit then one last time he held my arm agin kissed me on my lips and put his hand on my but... WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO MAKE FROM THIS.......... i ran as soon as i reached the exit not loooking backl or saying good bye.........

LOOK IM ONLY A TEEN , I HAVENT TOLD MY PARENTS OR ANYBODY I THGOUHT I NEEDE D PROFESSIONAL HELP ......SO WHAT SHOULD I DO OR MAKE OUT FROM THIS.........

IM VERY CONFUSED RIGHT

LOOK I KNOW U BUT I DONT WANNA TELL U WHO I AM .. BUT I KNOW UR QUITE INTELLECTUAL AND ALL SO I NEED UR INPUT......

L u D a said...

Its allright, and i shall keep your privacy.

Staying away is the best possible policy you can apply. Keeping it hush, and its best, you walk away from him.

I understand very well how you feel. Dont ask me how, but I do. Its very scary.

Remember one thing, this is not your fault. Do not blame yourself for this. Its best you keep this out from your parents at the moment. If you have a friend that goes along with you to the mosque or anyone elder too, keep to them. Stay with them.

However, the most important thing that you will do, is meet him right after the prayer and make sure its not very alone and personal. Tell him on his face, what he has done is not acceptable and be very straight forward and rude if it takes to. Do not create a scene, but he should get it that you dont mean any business with him.

May Allah give you the strength. Ameen.

And if you want you can contact me directly. Believe me thats the best option. You'll know when you do it.

L u D a said...

Oh and about what to make out of it. I think its very clear.

From what you have told me, even if you dont want to accept it, he isnt alright.

A peodophile, very much so. As far as I can make out of this.

Anonymous said...

thankss so much u really gave me strength.............. ohh god at magrib prayer ill tell him off right in his face.. thanks a lot saad bahi

Anonymous said...

he didnt come in the mousque maybe he didnt get space inside or was late anyway im going with a friend to the mousque now and im going to be very firm the moment i see him ill tell him that he is sick and wrong and to stay away from me...epople in my area know me a decent kid as they know hes a decent old guy living and working to feed his wife in INdia he told me ......

but i just hope that this never happens again and the fact ill have to see his face everday at my mousquee...shameless guy dosent ewven fear god!!! oh never mind anyways thanks for ur input i really needed opinions!!

Anonymous said...

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well it goes like this see i called up a little trusted friend of mine hes quite religious and all, and i told him my problem weve been friends for like more than 6 years now.... and hes a bit robust and tough looking after the final prayer at night me and him were waiting outside for him,he came and first said to me why do u look so upset i turnde to my friend who told him "so uncule what were u trying to do this morning??huh ??" so hes like my boy i was only showiing bortherly love thats all, i wasnt trying to melost him or child rape " (HAH THAT ASS HE KNEW ALL ALONG HOW A HAD TAKEN THE SITUATION I MEAN IS'NT A PERSON SUPPOSE TO AT LEAST ACT CONFUSED NOO BUT THIS GUY WENT STRAIGHT TO THE POINT...) SO MY FRIEND TOLD HIM THAT I DONT APPRECIATE OR LIKE WHENEVER HE TOUCHES ME SO HES LIKE OK AND HE LEAVES.... THEN i told my friend see this guy was a perv from the begginging he knew all along that im not a type of prson who squels...(tatle-tales)...
anyway everythings somewhat cool know.. and only thingis ill keep my space thats all..and im planning on telling the Maulvi son ( the guy who leads the prayers son),
i told my older sister and my friend till now and u... ok thanks for all ur help and support!!

Subhana said...

You're a brave boy!

L u D a said...

All thanks to ALLAH.

before you tell it to the Maulana, its most necessary you tell your dad too .. (or anyone of the parent you are closer to)

Anonymous said...

hmmm.. im nto telling mullan exactly im using that theroy that ones u tell someone a seret they cant hide it..im telling his son whos like 12 or 11 and he knows english thank god....and im telling him its a secret he cant tell anyone so naturally hell tell his dad.....i know him.... and ive told my sis so eventually my mom will find out...
( i like th e round about method)
thanks saad bhai once again for ur help and wish waqas best of luck for tommrows IGCSE URDU PAPER!!

Anonymous said...

saad bhai how come no more blog entreries?? i am fine by the grace of god,
i have this wierd stratergy in my head and it sort of worked...see like yesterday after isha prayer i was eaving mousque and he comes up to me and says "are u upset"(attention to apoint that no salam) i say that looking at the sky my friends mother sister dfied and i walked awaway he was left bewildered...................
and today at magrib............againm he approched me while iwas leaving but before he could say anything i said" my god my phone and ran" lol made it look like i fogot it...ive got a about 1000,000 thousand excuses pondering up my head right now...............

comicsans said...

Its a good one.
However i dont really like this style of writing (my opinion)

Anonymous said...

well comic sans or should i say bagi from the reading of ur blog i could well make out..........
that ur a girl off say past a levels ,...and intelligent and very god fearing correct.........
well ill try and improve in my english..........ohh by the way ur blog is amazing bagi.......... also urs i thionk u guys are realted??? couzins perhaps??

comicsans said...

Salaam Alaikum dear brother
You are very welcome. You have complimented too far to be correct. Jazakh Allah. I hope my blog serves as a good source of dawah of Islam. Do visit my blog and if you want me to post on a topic you like, plz do not hesitate to ask me so. We will all learn from each other inshallah.
Yes we are both are cousins :)

Anonymous said...

well i must say this has really proved to be wuie a great source of communication.......how about one on pheodilphine thingi what saaad bhai told me that guy was.........................
anyway imm really tied up with exams.........

comicsans said...

Inshallah. It will be up anytime after 3rd june inshallah as i am surrounded with miscellaneous chores too.

Anonymous said...

ok bagi lsiten my exams will finish on the twelft then i can come...till then asslamalikum....and hope GOD PROTECTS ALLL...........