Tuesday, January 03, 2006

by gone

This happened some time back ..

I dont remember the date, but it was the first night it rained in Pakistan. It poured to the extent that my cousin got scared, but they had fun. Accross the city some one else was experiencing everything contrary.
A grand-father in relation was being rushed from hospital to hospital, in search of space and facility to operate. 12:30 PST, they found one that had both, and the operation began.
He came safe out of that, but his condition was still hanging on threads.
My parents got their tickets, were ready to leave the next night. Next morning though, he was reported dead.

Wierd, it was. I was already very weary of his survival when I heard they are searching for a hospital in the middle of the night. I knew it was serious then. But somehow I'd assumed he's gonna stay up till mom and dad got there. Theyd see him and probably then he'd die. How naive of me. For sometime there, I'd totally forgotten it was God's game, and his call too.

I never loved him. It was merely a respect relationship from my side. Until this time when i wen to my country, though. It also had fun involved. We used to play Ludo against each other. Cheat, when he didnt look. It was fun this time.

Then again its an absurd thought that I get all the time when I think about him. Its like he's still going to be there. He's still going to be sitting there watching T.V. all day long, and in my heart, i'd be feeling why doesnt he move away somewhere else. Why doesnt he go talk or sleep, I want the lounge to my self for sometime. Yeah I used to think about him like that. Now, I cant think. There is no him anymore. I dont miss him, but I am sad. How abrupt the end was.

A full stop, in the wrong place (for our thinking), in the right place for the believers.

May he be granted the gardens of Jannah - Amen.


comicsans said...

Verily, those who say:”Our Lord is Allah(Alone),” and then they stand firm, on them the angels will descend (at the time of their death)(saying):”Fear not,nor grieve! But receive the glad tidings of Paradise which you have been promised!” (Fussilat,30)

May Allah forgive his and our sins. Ameen

comicsans said...

:) yes we just pray

EleKtra said...


MAy Allah forgive him and grant him Jannah Ameen!!