I dont care about you,
I dont care about anyone,
I dont care about what they think.

I do it for myself,
I do it coz I want to prove it to myself.

and nothing else matters.

every story's broken
every one's in pain


- fuck me I'm emo.

Dont tell me what I cant do,
I know myself better than anybody else
And if I fail,
I'll learn something new.

USE

B1 - MAAAAN I am so in love with this song. I mean I can just not get it out of my head man .. I mean its like drugs .. I just want it to go on and on.

G1 - Ahaan

B1 - You know, thats the thing with me, I have this phase. I keep listening to a song or an artist over and over and over again. On and on .. until I've sucked every last drop of pleasure and excitement out of it .. and then I kinda you know .. meh. BUT THEN, ages later i come back to it again .. and you know the drill.

G1 - but that's bad na? I mean ....

B1 - what's bad about that? I can listen to whatever I want to whenever I want to. ITS A FREE WORLD HUN! Aint no stopping .....

G1 - but dont you think you do the same thing with people?

B1 - ........... err .... what? ....

u like some cheez.

I know that maybe a day / week / month from now I am going to look at this and go like .. DOOD WTF? SERIOUSLY WTF? but for the time being ... here's some ultimate cheeze mateez.

I welcome your revolution
The substitution of your thoughts
My place in your heart enjoys some change
A relocation to a better spot

And how you smile it makes me weak
And how you wonder what I need
The excitement in the way you listen
Your anticipation to hear me speak

And how you want us to be forever
How you never want this to change
And how you never tell me the way you’re feeling
But you want me to appreciate

Oh you’ve become the one I wanted
Oh you’ve become what I’d imagined in my head
Oh how I cant stop from falling in love again
Again in love with your new self.

How you’ve lost your reservations
And the attitude of stones
And how you want to talk about everything
In my head you’ve begun to unfold

The way you hate it when I am going
And how you miss me when I am gone
The jealousy that is so reflective
The possessive nature of your love

Oh you’ve become the one I wanted
Oh you’ve become what I’d imagined in my head
Oh how I cant stop from falling in love again
Again in love with your new self.

But I take a step back from this place
And cynic on this happy phase
There is nothing that I’ve done different
What has brought about this change?

Oh you’ve become the one I wanted
Oh you’ve become what I’d imagined in my head
But I cant help thinking you’re faking this
Why do you love me now this way?

Oh you’ve become the one I wanted
Oh you’ve become what I’d imagined in my head
Oh how I cant stop from falling in love again
Again in love with your new self.
But I cant help thinking you’re faking this
Why do you love me now this way?

and yes there is a tune to this. oh god. I am already contemplating the post.

The Honest Scrap

Before I begin, I'd like to apologise to Siras, coz I think something similar she tagged me to, earlier, and I was too busy to complete that. I hope this one here shall suffice the previous requisitions.

hmm.

first off (as copied off Drama Queen's blog) the RULES

The rules of the award:

• Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.
• Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with "Honest Scrap." Well, there's no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon.
• List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

Since its 2 in the morning and I have work tomorrow I shall tag other innocent bloggies later.

for now...

here goes nothing ..

DISCLAIMER - SOME OF THESE FACTS ARE JUST DOWN RIGHT DISGUSTING (like this next one) YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

Number 10
I am a tension farter - I've said this before, but when I am in tension (specially during the time when they're taking the papers from us during the exams) I fart. Not so much farting at the office though.

Number 9
I am a tension hogger - When I heard my aunt's met a serious accident, what's the first thing I do? I stop my car and have a Shawarmah. Yes I hog when I am a distressed.

Number 8
I am fat and hairy - and i know it :P

Number 7
I have bunked work many times, and even then not reporting to the staff about my absence. I mean thats what bunking is right, otherwise its a leave. :P

Number 6
I love playing video games and criticizing them, but I am generally not very good at them.

Number 5
Even though I say I am not, I am actually very sensitive (hides face).

Number 4
Regretably, I hurt the people closest to me the most and with great cruelty. In fact these are the only people who I even show an attitude to. I am such a pig. Then again you can only hurt people who are close to you, other's wud prolly just shrug it off their shoulder.

Number 3
I am scared of taking decisions that may CHANGE the normal course of things. In other words, I am afraid to take the leap of faith.

Number 2
I always try to see the other side of the story, even if it involves my family, friends or evem GOD and religion for that matter.

Number 1
I was a better person

(to be updated)

Nothing in my way

How can they have a song for every god damned THING?

presenting, - Nothing in my way - Keane

A turning tide
Lovers at a great divide
Why d'you laugh?
When I know that you're hurt inside?

And why'd you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?
And why'd you lie
When you wanna die, when you're hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say

A tell-tale sign
You don't know where to draw the line

And why'd you say
It's just another day, nothing in my way
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say
And why'd you lie
When you wanna die, when you're hurt inside
Don't know what you lie for anyway
Now there's nothing left to say

Well for a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
You're having such a nice time

(Just...)
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
(...another day, nothing in my way, I..)
For a lonely soul, you're having such a nice time
(...don't wanna go, I don't wanna stay. just..)
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you're having such a nice time
(... another day, nothing in my way; Don't know what you lie for...)
You're having such a nice time
(...anyway)

I am in half a mind to buy both their albums. The best british act since coldplay in my opinion. oh yeah also listen to Somewhere only we know, ultimate.

....

He stretched out his hand and said in an affirming tone, "if you're not afraid to change, if you're willing to forget, if you're ready to leave them 'coz you dont care about anyone but yourself, your ideas, your motives and your life; then walk with me. The path is dangerous and you shall be bruised, but you'll be fine as long as you've got me".

My decision was swift.

I grabbed his hand and asked his name.

"Ego", he said.

the man in the suit

hello, rise and shine
the sun's in on time
you get up from your bed
in a suit.

You're aware of almost every bit
of conscience you must lug with
diamonds and their districts
in a suit.

you're smiling and you're crying,
you're hiding but denying,
you're amazing but you're lying
in your suit.

you tread into the beaches
with Armani and your Ginches
you're bathing in the water
in your suit.

you're up when it is dark,
and you're there after the hour,
you even walk around the park
in your suit.

you're smoking while you're breathing
you're loving but you're cheating
teasing and displeasing,
in your suit.

you disgust me
and you know well
and its never hard to tell
but you love the way it smells
in your suit.

you're craving,
not believing,
you love the silky feeling,
your hand inside the pocket
of your suit.

you're burning from within,
with the heat that is discerning,
its melting your life but never your heart.

'coz you're ageing and you're breaking
not now but you'll be fading
you're dieing in the warmth
of your suit.

its odd really, that that person is soo good, such an amazing human being, that its impossible to hate them. 

And you know the case is true with everyone who knows them. 

And how you wish you could help them, be of use to them, when they are a little unfortunate. 

Yet all the people they ever knew are there for them

Makes you feel like you dont need to be there.

They obviously dont need your help. 

thankyou very much.